Monday, October 5, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
I NEED MORE FOLLOWERS AND COMMENTS lol.
I will be doing a giveaway sometime this month but you have to follow my blog in order to be entered into it. So follow, follow, follow!!! lol
I am in LOVE!!! LOL I'll talk more about that later :)
I am so excited for school to start! I'm going to be a student ambassador at my school, and we get to kind of like mentor freshmen and new students. I'm really excited, we get to organize a freshman orientation and do a ton of fun stuff with them. I think it's going to be a very good experience. I SO HAPPY TO BE A SENIOR!!!! lol lamo
And last but def not least...
My boyfriend is leaving :"( He's off to Western Nebraska Community College on Sunday. He's a sophomore and it is his second year there. I going to miss him so much :( We have been through sooooooooo much through this relationship and we have been on a lil break since July but I honesty can say I'm actually glad we took this break. We have got so much closer and I think that we have both realized that what we have together is so amazingly good, lol. It's still a lil hard because we still got somethings that we both need to work on but I know that we are both trying are best and in the long run everything will be worth it. Our 1 year anniversery is coming up in October. I'm so excited, lol, but we prolly wont be able to celebrate it till Thanksgiving break when he's home from school. Maybe I can talk him into to coming home earlier lol.
Does anybody have any advice on maintaining a strong long distance relationship??
What are your feelings about school starting??
Dont forget to follow the blog and leave comments :)
Till next time♥
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
At Her Funeral
Saturday, August 1, 2009
So I was looking at the August 09 Teen Vogue (one of my favorite magazines) and I was so inspired by all the different styles and fashion and it made me want to redo my who wardrobe, lol. Usually I just buy wat I think is cute but now I'm heading towards more of a certain style. I really like to wear sneakers and hip hop clothing but I love to be classy and rock a pair of heels every now and then. I really like the whole haute couture and runway looks that the huge designers do. Now I'm not ballin so I can't really go out buying Ralph Lauren, Gucci, Nine West, DKNY, and all of those other expensive brands. I stick more to the Baby Phat, South Pole, you know, urban affordable brands. I mean if I had the money I would def buy all the expensive designer clothing, bags, and shoes. So while I was looking threw my mag, I came across an article called Recessionistas. It talked about little rich girls and how they go to consignment stores to get all the designer clothing, shoes, and bags for good prices. Talkin bout they found a suppa cute pair of jeans for $50. Now being the hood, ain't got that much money girl that I am, lol, I was like what the heck! How does this help me in anyway!! I want the cute designer stuff for cheap too but I aint got $50 dollars to spend on a cute pair of jeans that are originally $300, I mean yea that's a good deal, but I still can't afford it. :( So I was a lil mad about that, wondering why they would put an article about saving money for girls who have tons of money rather than for girls who don't have all that much money and can't just go to daddy and ask for $100.
So 2day we went out to eat at Old Country Buffet and I decided to pay for the whole family. It cost me $41 and I was like what the heck I can't believe this cost $41 so I was like I'm so bout to get my moneys worth lol.
But anyways, lol, afterwards I asked my mom if we could look in this lil gift shop and she said yes so we looked around at all the cute lil things they were selling. As I looked around my mom said there was a consignment store near by and she asked if I wanted to go, so I was like yea, lets see if what that article said about saving money by shopping at consignment stores is true. So we walked in there and it stunk really bad, lol. My mom decided to go to Radio Shack with my dad and brothers but I decided to look around in the store. I went to the small section and started looking through the clothes and OMG IT WAS LIKE HEAVEN lol. They had supa cute shirts that pretty much all cost under $10. I was like OMG THIS IS SO CUTE! and yup it was almost all designer clothes. I was like THE ARTICLE WAS TRUE!!! lol I picked out a few things 2 try on and settled on a cute Arden B. sweater. The price tag said $7.25 so I was like ok yea thats a pretty good deal. So I went to the cash register and the lady rang up my shirt and she was like "that will be $1.86" I had to ask her to repeat the total again cause I thought I heard her wrong, lol. I swear I wanted to start screamin in the store and jumping up and down, lol, but I kept all that happiness inside lol. So I was supa hype and asked my mom if we could go check out some thrift stores. I only went to 2 stores 2day but I def am gonna hit some more up in the future.
Here's some pictures of what I got...
The uner shirt is also by Arden B.
I'd name her Cupcake, lol
(not the cutest pic of us, lol)
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
So I just got an e-mail from Fastweb.com (best site for college scholarships!!!) and it was titled "America's Top 20 Party Schools". So I decided to go check out the list and well, idk none of my schools that I'm interested in were on there, so I guess that's good right?? lol Seriouly though I'm not a party girl so I could careless if the colleges I'm interested in are party schools or not, but all of my choises are HBCU's and I seriously thought that atleast one of my choices would be on the list cause everybody always talks about how "HBCUs are just party schools" and "they don't take education seriously". Obviously the ones I like aren't that bad if they aint make the Top 20 lol.
Here's the list...
20. Arizona State University, Tempe, Ariz.
19. Tulane University, New Orleans, La.
18. University of North Dakota, Grand Forks, N.D.
17. Sewanee: The University of the South, Sewanee, Tenn.
16. University of Tennessee, Knoxville, Tenn.
15. DePauw University, Greencastle, Ind.
14. Indiana University, Bloomington, Ind.
13. Union College, Schenectady, N.Y.
12. University of Iowa, Iowa City, Iowa
11. University of Colorado, Boulder, Colo.
10. University of California-Santa Barbara, Santa Barbara, Calif.
9. Florida State University, Tallahassee, Fla.
8. University of Wisconsin, Madison, Wis.
7. University of Texas, Austin, Texas
6. West Virginia University, Morgantown, W.Va.
5. Ohio University, Athens, Ohio
4. University of Georgia, Athens, Ga.
3. University of Mississippi, Oxford, Miss.
2. University of Florida, Gainesville, Fla.
1. Penn State University, State College, Pa.
What do yall think?? Does anyone go to one of these schools or want to go to one of these schools??
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
So today was just a regular day. I went to work, then came home. Nothing really crazy happened at work today. Well this lady did make me super mad, lol. When I shelve books I have to put them in alphabetical order and this library is stupid big, A - B Journals are on the 3rd floor, C- Z Journals are on the 2nd floor, and books with call numbers are on the 4th floor. So I have to put the A - B books on a different cart than the C - Z books. I have a special place where I alphabetize the journals, way in the back of the library. Why?? Cause it's quiet, warm, and no one ever goes back there. Well today this old lady decided that she wanted to sit there and study. I had the journals on the table in order and she just sat there and moved them over and messed up my whole process. I was sooooooooooo mad, lol.
I get paid 2morro. I'm super excited!!! I've been trying to figure out all week what Im going to buy. After budgeting I figured that I'll probably have around $300 spending money. I really want the new DSi (I love Cooking Mama lol) because I would have something to do at work while I 'm sitting there bored, but I really want the iPod Touch cause I just love all the different features that it has, but I really want a new phone with an unlimited everything plan, lol. I have been going back and forth all day trying to decide which one I want to buy, whether I should just get them all with every check I get this summer, or maybe should I just choose 1 to buy this whole summer, or if maybe I should just say 4get it and go on a shopping spree at the MOA (Mall of America for those of you who don't live in MN, lol). Tell me what you guys think I should do. Does neone have ne of the things I listed (smart phone, iTouch, DSi). What do you like about it. I really need to figure out what I wanna get lol. Who ever knew spending money would be so frustrating lol.
I'll let you guys know what I decide to get and post pics of whatever I buy.
See u Later :) ♥♥♥
Monday, July 27, 2009
Omg and then there's the bus ride home, see I have to take a bus downtown then catch another bus from downtown to my house. I seriously hate public transportation. Once these 4 ladies (probably between the ages 20 - 30) got on the bus with like 10 kids all probably under 10 and they were all saying mommy this and mommy that...I was like what the heck, how in the world do they have so many kids, lol. I 4real thought it was like a daycare lol. and then there's the 100 years old niggas wanna be players who try and holla at me, like 2day I was on my second bus goin home, and this guy got on the bus and came and sat right next to me, now in my mind im like "4real nigga, there's like millions of seats open on this bus, why is you sittin next to me???!!!" well he either read my mind or just read my facial expressions cuz he was like "i saw how pretty you was and I just had to sit next 2 u" lol now I find it suppa funny when dudes TRY and spit game it be so hard for me 2 hold back the urge to crack up laughin (sometimes I cant lol) but 2day I was juss like wow, laughed in my mind, looked at him crazy, den put my ipod on the highest volume possible lol...so i guess he took the hint cause he aint say squat to me the rest of the bus ride but wen he got off he walked pass my window and waved, again i threw him a crazy look then focused my attention on the passin cars lol. At moments like these I really wish I woulda got my permit when I was 15 (I'll be 18 in Sept. lol) I seriously need to go take these drivers ed classes so I wont have to take the bus nemore and see these crazy, weird, stank, random people nemore. I cant lie though sometimes I love public transportation, I saw the finest bus driver the other day lol, he had to be like early 20s, I wonder why he's a bus driver???
Well Im gettin kinda tired...it's only 10:05...lol idk I like to get my 8 hours of sleep lol (i wake up at 6:45 :(...every morning)
Monday, July 20, 2009
Hmmmmmmmm...ok idk but this dont seem all that sincere to me, to be honest he look like he was reading off some cards that somebody was holdin up in the background, that his publicist wrote for him. Idk maybe he really do mean what he sayin but this video seemed real fake. Idk I never was a Chris Brown fan so maybe it's just me. What do yall think about this so call'd apology??
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Today I was thinking about my ex because I found out that he is moving to another state and I just couldn't help but wonder what it would be like if I was still with him. I met him through a friend about a little over a year ago. At first I wasn't very interested in him because I had just got out of a relationship before and was just so fed up with guys. I just wanted to take a break. So I wouldn't reply to him messages on Myspace or call him, but he just wouldn't give up. I knew his cousin and a few of his friends and they all told me how much this dude was really fellin me. They said that he always talked about me and said how much he really really liked me, and how much he wanted to get to know me and make me his girl. Well like every girl I was supa flattered by all the nice things he would say to me and I finally decided to just go head and give him a chance. I think that was the best but at the same time worst choice that I ever made in my life. He was the perfect boyfriend, he called like 3 times a day, stopped hanging around people that were bad influences, stopped drinking and smoking, came to see me whenever I asked, and my family loved him. I fell so hard for him, he was my first love. I loved him more than anything in this whole world, and he told me that he loved me even more than I loved him. He was everything I could ever want in a boyfriend. Then out of nowhere he started acting 4real weird, he stopped calling and whenever I did talk to him it would only be for like 5 minutes then he would say "let me call you back"...he never did. Now I was like hold up wait a minute what in the world is going on. He started sayin weird stuff on his Myspace like, "I liked my old life better" and just stuff that was pretty bogus. One day I invited him over to my house for a BBQ and everything was koo at first but then my brothers wanted to play basketball and I asked if he wanted to play with us and he was like no (now just to let yall know, he always played with my lil bros when they asked him to play so this was so not him) So I asked him did he want to go on a walk with me instead because I had planned on asking him what was going on and if he still wanted to be in this relationship, but when we went on the walk he started getting all lovey dovey so I figured maybe he just was having a bad day but he wanted to make it better or something. I started to get suppa suspicious after that so I logged onto his Myspace to see if maybe I could figure out why the sudden change, or if maybe there was someone else. Turns out there was :( So I dumped him with out even an explanation and told him to never talk to me again. I was so heart broken, I believed everything he told me and took it to heart. About a week later he called and swore on everything that he hadn't cheated, even though he told all his friends that he in fact had cheated. You know what he told me, he said "just cause you write something on Myspace don't mean its true, I was just sayin that to be cool" I was so mad at him cause I knew he was lyin but I loved him so much and I decided to give him another chance. Things were never the same. We broke up. We made up. We broke up. We made up. That went on for a whole year. Just recently was I able to finally see that I meant nothing to him, even though he said that I meant the world to him.
I hate that I ever gave him my heart because to me that is something I will never get back. It's like he took my heart from me and wont give it back. I still love and care for him so much, as a friend, but we will never be a couple again and from the looks of it, we wont even be friends ever again. I really wish I could erase him from my memory, or find a guy who could replace those memories with good ones, but I have failed at that attempt. To find a guy who really cares, or maybe it's just that I've been hurt so much that and I cant see that the guy I'm with now really does care and love me.
I think that right now, at this very moment, I am going to let go of all the bad things that guys have done to me. Let go of all the hurt and pain. I'm moving on as a new woman, who is no longer looking for love. No longer waiting for love. Right now...
I just wanna be happy...